LIFE

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I‘m not sure how I became obsessed with death. Not that I consider it an obsession, because it’s not- at least not to me. I know about people being obsessed with death; their thoughts are all related to death, their actions hampered by death, even their desires are affected by it. A life zoomed in on death. It’s a serious condition and it might lead to suicide- most of them do see a shrink.

I admit, I used to see a shrink too. I was in analysis for many years- except, it had nothing to do with death. My years on the couch were about life. The difficulties and confusions of life. Life always bothered me. It still does.
The meaning of life, the sense of it all- what makes it worth living, the futility of it sometimes, the hollowness… Not to mention things like love and hate and happily-ever-after. Complicated stuff, like everyone knows.

It doesn’t mean I prefer to die. Of course not! There’s too much to live for. Things to explore, to experience, to learn…

A Guide To Happiness

I found this book about extremely happy people, and their secrets and choices. By travelling to 7 continents and over 40 countries, interviewing hundreds of happy people, the two American writers, Rick Foster and Greg Hicks, claimed to have created a clear guide to happiness.
The book has been on international bestseller’s lists for more than 20 years now and the writers have been teaching happiness at Stanford University, UC Berkeley, and even run workshops in Happiness!

Apparently, you have to grow an active intention to be happy. Extremely happy people seem to make the same 9 choices permanently, in order to find happiness (which then is leading to good health, better job performance, effective stress-management, etcetera). I never knew all that. It’s not something you’re being told in analysis.

One of the main goals of psychoanalysis is not to be told things by others, but to explore your own feelings. The analyst’s role is largely to reflect upon whatever is coming to the surface of your mind, not his- to put it simple. And sure, it could all be about happiness for some, fine, why not, but somehow I doubt it. What about misery, grief, desire, frustration?

Freud somewhere says, it’s only in a state of frustration that we begin to imagine and envision our desires… (This is for the unhappy ones, wherever you are –or those who regularly feel that way!).

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The Lucky Ones

Suppose though, you’ve realised a life you never dreamed of. You accomplished everything you always wanted- or more. The love. The kids. The money. The recognition. It’s all there, and you simply love your existence. Every single day of it…

It’s not a planet familiar to me -I can’t even imagine such a life, but that’s a different matter. We’re talking about those who seem to live life to the fullest. People who are at the pinnacle of what most of us strive for: fame, fortune, love, respect, you name it, they have it.

The Lucky Ones. Or should I say: the clever ones. As they’ve been doing a lot better than most of us. In almost every way possible. Think tennis star Serena Williams, business giant Richard Branson (who is always smiling -golden hair and all), author J.K Rowling, actress Scarlett Johansson… No Happiness-projects there. They epitomize happiness.

Yet one day time is up. For each and every one of them as well. It’s over. The lucky ones die too, you know. Despite fame and fortune, palaces and castles, millions of fans…
They’ll have to leave it all behind, right then and there. Chased out of whatever life they had constructed, forced to depart from all those they loved, from those who adored them. So sorry, your beautiful existence here is over…
Now why would anyone of them like that? Why would anybody ever like it?

A Total and Utter Failure

Or let’s imagine the contrary; obviously worse. You’re neither happy, nor successful, by whatever definition. You’re lost and lonely. You haven’t found love yet, the love of your life, the kind you’ve always been searching for. And gradually you don’t see any purpose in love any longer.

Or you’re poor; you hardly make any money. Not third-world-poor, but daily-life-poor, the kind where you’re afraid to answer your phone, to run into your landlord, to receive letters delivered at the door; whatever might come your way when you’re short on money.

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You consider yourself a total and utter failure. You haven’t accomplished anything worthwhile, you feel. And I’m not talking Mother Teresa-stuff here, just ordinary achievements. Things you do, you’re supposed to do, you might have done, you could do… Day in, day out.

You know you haven’t realized one tiny part of your talents.

Whenever you’re at that point in life, though, you want time in particular. Of course! Before all else. Heaps of time.  You want extra days of it, weeks, years, so that one day, you too will be able to realize your goals and fulfill your dreams… Who wouldn’t want that?

Believe me, life is always better.

I think…

6 Comments, RSS

  1. Jindra Markus 15-07-2017 @ 20:14

    Searching for happines is like looking for an emotional orgasm. Orgasms might be rare, and for many people it is something to fake; the majority of people fake this kind of happiness. TV is usually a kind of total happiness-fake as well. The same applies to succes. The lack of succes is often the next emotional disaster.
    Happiness, however, depends on your expectations. The higher these are, the more of a risk there is. So the question is: are you willing to take the risk of becoming very happy, or is a little bit of happiness enough for you?

    In the latter case, you could simply be happy about your restricted state of happiness at no risk at all.

    • Alexa Khan 23-07-2017 @ 17:27

      Thank you for your comments, Jindra.

  2. Ekaterina 15-07-2017 @ 20:22

    I really enjoy your posts, because of the way you express your feelings and views but also because of so much information in your posts at the same time. As a result of this post, i bought ‘How we choose to be happy’ and started to read it today:) Can’t believe I’ve missed on this one till now.
    Ekaterina

    • Alexa Khan 23-07-2017 @ 16:44

      Thank you for your compliments, Ekaterina. I’m glad you like my posts. And about the info, I do think we need knowledge -it might help us better understand our complicated selves, others, the world, right?

  3. Ton van Schaik 16-07-2017 @ 10:43

    Dear Alexa,

    Your story about “Life” reminded me of an Albert Einstein-quote which I always use in discussions about future and change: “The measure of intelligence is the ability to change…”
    Here are some additional thoughts I like to share: too often change is a really difficult path to follow -for individuals as well as groups; we tend to defend existing things, or theories, and we are often too lazy, too busy, or too tired to do a little research, or take some precious time to discuss new matters. It seems even more difficult for us to openly admit to change. However, people and groups who are open to change will be happier in the end, I think.
    As Einstein also said: “A happy man is too satisfied with the present to dwell too much in the future… ”
    Happiness in life has a lot to do with the present situation we found ourselves in; if you experience a good deal of happiness in the present, you tend to stop dwelling on the future. The opposite is also true: too much dwelling into the future, or losing yourself in thoughts about the future, seems to influence your present happiness.
    Einstein again: “Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving…”
    To simply keep moving will keep you in a kind of balance -with or without happiness, or trapped into a situation you can’t escape, it seems; no alternatives there. All you have to do is hang in there and overcome these periods of bad luck, or boring work, or whatever. In the end a balanced person will survive and he or she will have a chance to find some kind of happiness.

    After all this writing it time now to prepare some food and have an enjoyable meal… And get happy, of course!

    Lots of success with your ongoing stories!

    Ton van Schaik (Italy)

    • Alexa Khan 23-07-2017 @ 19:22

      Thank you so much for your interesting thoughts on the matter, Ton! And who would disagree with Einstein!

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